What have I done?

And why have I done it? I must have gone temporarily insane today.
I'm having a fit of the blues. I miss my work, and I miss my little wage. I was only working 8 hours a fortnight, but that brought in my 'pin money', which I now don't have. So why did I have the urge to splurge on my credit card today? About $160 on linens at the Eltham Antique Market, and another $70 on Paypal, for some cross stitch patterns I found tonight on a website. Oh I admit that under any circumstances I would have wanted the linens for my collection; they are absolutely gorgeous. I haven't seen anything as nice for ages, and I haven't even look at eBay for months, so as not to be tempted. The cross stitch patterns are designs that I've seen on other people's blogs, and have been looking for them myself, so again, I would have bought them eventually. But I should not be spending that kind of money at the moment.

Another reason I'm 'down' is probably because I've been reading the book "Black Saturday", and it is harrowing stuff. I've got quite depressed over it. Feel like I'm re-living those awful weeks in February all over again. What must it be like for those who lived through it?